You know what? Sometimes starting a business can be really, really hard. I have days where I feel super confident, like I know exactly what I'm doing, I've got a clear vision of what I need to do and when. And then there are others day, like today, where I'm feeling lost, really confused, and like everything is a bit hopeless.
I haven't shared anything vulnerable in quite a long time, because to be honest, I didn't want to seem unprofessional. I'm working super hard at the moment to really nail down where I'm taking my photography career, what the next move should be, how I can make the next step up, and that comes with a heck of a lot of doubt.
To paint the picture for you, I've been at my desk for 2 and a half hours, reading article after article online, hoping that something will enlighten me. Praying really hard that something will spark in my head after reading a sentence, and I'll know exactly what to do next. The reality is that probably isn't going to happen. What is going to happen, is I'll have to shift my perspective today; focus on doing something else, otherwise I'll drown myself in this feeling of self doubt, anxiety and confusion. How do I know? Because I've done it before! (Actually, quite a few times).
I don't know why I'm sharing this, other than to show you all that I'm human, that I really don't have this all figured out. It's so easy to think that everyone around us knows exactly what they're doing, that they're killing it at life, and that you're the only one sitting there with your head in your hands, with no idea whats going on.
All I do know, is that whenever I have a camera in my hand, I'm happy. So what am I going to do today? Shoot something, anything. It's what always works. It brings me back to why I'm doing this, why I'm trying so hard to make this work, and striving to improve.